We went to clinic yesterday prepared for a full day at the hospital, but ended up leaving after two hours. Ev's ANC was too low to handle the chemo that was to be given. So, we have another week off for his body to create more cells.
As a family, we have gone from a fairly routine life to one that can vary daily. After two months in to treatment, it seems to vary weekly. We are forced into an anti-rthyhm existence. We have to take each day at a time and not plan much further. And, we know that no matter what we plan it may not come about. In some ways, it's frustrating (for example, when others ask if you want to do something and you're not sure if you can, or if you are willing to leave Ev out of the action, again). It's hard not knowing where the finish line is. And, in other ways, an anti-rthyhm existence is helping to be in the moment and to enjoy more of it.
I wake up thankful that Ev is here with us and that he is fighting so wonderfully. I'm glad to be at home with the boys and glad to still be able to see friends and family. And, I'm glad that I can see how God is taking care of us. The rest are just details that don't amount to too much.
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