Though I think the allergy medicine helped, it did not take the extra sick days away. I guess we have to assume that he is feeling more side effects from the chemo meds and that this is one of them. Thank God for Zofran and other drugs that off set.
The day after the clinic visit was horrible. Ev felt sick and was inconsolable. I was told by someone who had recently gone through chemo herself that she had days that all she wanted was to be held, yet couldn't stand to be touched. It creaks my heart to hear a grown woman say that and then to think that a child still learning how to deal with emotions is probably feeling the same way.
So, for close to a week life really sucked. It's not that there are no glimpses of joy or that laughter is never heard within our walls...but the challenges out weigh all else. The steroid he is on had very little effect on him at first, then over time, it has started to change his mood. Everett has "roid rage". I think the last time we consistently dealt with that was around christmas time.
Usually, the bad moods and bad days come and go, but this drug had the upper hand this past round. We will see what comes in a couple weeks (coffee and beer for me...a padded room and plenty of mac and cheese for Ev).
I find that as time goes on, I am more hopeful and proud of how far we've come through this without as many dents and scratches that we could have had. I mean this metaphorically and literally.
In a couple months we will be close to being half way though his treatment and that's a great feeling.
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